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Monday, October 27, 2008

9:36 PM

well im back! from malaysia WOW...
but i guess, i do like going to malaysia, despite SOMEBODY who promised me pastamania dinner after eoys but is now in BEIJING eating beijing duck or whatever probably stuffing herself full to bursting while i went malaysia to eat at roadside stall!!! oh, and she rubbed it in saying she's going to europe after that... which is the choir trip lah, the one which i cant go... freaking thousand dollars more for me just cos im a malaysian! like i was born in singapore, but my parents are frm malaysia, so technically im malaysian so i didnt get the subsidy for the trip. but it's freaking unfair for me to pay extra, nevermind. i will console myself with the thought of souvenirs from choir people when they get back?? not bad a deal actually... esp cos it's free! and looking forward to sharlyn's souvenir, haha. cos i trust her taste! ;D but i guess i really have to thank those who tried to help me lah... esp hazel, who wanted to pay almost the full thousand dollars for me?! wow i really appreciated it but it was kinda hard to accept all that money... so sorry.

well back to the uh.. overseas trip to malaysia! hmm, i was really glad my cousin was staying at my grandma's house during the weekend too! i knew her since she was born, and she really is a real good friend and cousin! haha, though she IS the only cousin who doesnt drool and cry and sleep. so i went to my grandma's house, and we chose a room all for ourselves to sleep in! cos there are 4 bedrooms upstairs, so we took one of the empty ones and camped there throughout our stay! it was nice, she talked about her life and i told her about mine, cos it aint like she can blab about what i said to anyone, neither can i... and we had really funny conversations at night, and i found out things i didnt know before...
anyway so she was telling me abt her school's choir and how she hates it, and she told me abt their choir costume lah,
YS: so their blouse is BLACK and their skirts is until their legs and it's also BLACK. then for the boys, their shirt is also BLACK and pants are also BLACK. and you know, their tie is... (pauses)
Me: black?
YS: YELLOW!
(crazy laughter)
YS: and the girls tie their hair into either buns or two braids (eww) and you know their ribbon is... (pauses again)
Me: black?!
YS: NO, YELLOW!
(crazy laughter)
hahaha, i dont know abt you but black and yellow?! what combo is that? and i assure you, it aint the nice shade of yellow.
i hope she manages to come to singapore to study! apparently she's thinking abt coming here after sec 3, but i dunno how she's gonna learn everything by o levels, when we have learnt it for 4 years and still dont understand what we are doing.

anyway, i havent blogged in a while and alot of things have happened which i didnt write about... like sports carnival, reflection day... eoys too.
i really have to buck up on my studying but i always say but never do! but i cant explain why my emath 81/100 but my amath 36/90?! and my mum crumpled up my amath paper after she saw it and cried... i didnt know what to say. but somehow im thinking of crumpler bags right now. O_o
speaking of crying, i didnt cry during reflection day. i couldnt get why i didnt cry, i did have some sniff worthy things to cry about but i didnt even feel a teeny bit of sadness/remorse/anger/regret or whatever that day. it was like my heart was made of stone... even when i hugged the crying dudes i didnt feel anything. then i went to sit beside caroline thinking she would need some comforting like the others, but she looked quite normal... until sock yie said she was looking up at the ceiling at some point in time cos she was tearing. so i just sat beside her lah, but i left her after that. but i wished i saw her going to the toilet to cry after that! she really needed comforting actually but i didnt realise! argh. but she told me that sitting beside her gave her strength or else she would have cried on the spot... so thanks! haha i didnt know i was helpful although i did lean on you and rested on your shoulder. :D wa i really feel guilty i couldnt see all the times when she was angry at me, i never realised it! just went on with my life while she was pissed, and i still had the audacity to joke with her, still not realising she was angry! wow im pro. but caroline, thanks for being there for me too! like answering my calls when i was breaking down... even though i wasnt there when you called! :) <- wrong use of smiley here.

alright there are probably (surely) lots of things i missed out but i need to bathe! so if something is missing, dont be angry okay?! wenjing, i havent replied your tag yet but next time okay??

&the beauty.